Dear Bible Diary, we have got to stop meeting like this. Or should I say: Dear Word of God, we have got to stop meeting like this. Sometimes the last minute before bed I reluctantly remember "Oh I haven't read today, ugh, I wanted to watch Netflix before bed."
It's only Day 46 and though I hope by Day 365 I will naturally want to make the Word of God more and more a part of my day, I know there's a lot of days ahead where I will feel this way. And I probably need to give myself some grace in that, because God does.
So yes, I read through the reading today rather quickly. But I highlighted a few things, one being Ezekiel 11:19-20 "I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. They will be my people, and I will be their God."
I've heard this verse many times in my life, but the context enriches it so much. I cannot deny how foolish and fickle I can be. Reading about Israel is a lot of times really frustrating because "YOU GUYS WHAT ARE YOU DOING LISTEN TO GOD" but also it is painfully convicting as I know I too don't listen to God. I too forget the precious gift I have to be called "child of God." I too forget to stand up for what is right. I too proclaim "peace, peace" when there is no peace.
In this very moment I am aware of how divided my heart is. Because I know that as soon as I publish this post I'm going to go back to my Netflix show so I can squeeze in an episode before bed. I'm not saying Netflix is bad or an idol (but maybe, yes) it's just the immediate example I have right now.
I want an undivided heart. I want to be completely absorbed with Jesus.
God, I pray for an undivided heart, I pray for a new spirit, a heart of flesh. Keep me focused, keep me worshipful, keep me willing to go and do whatever You want. Be my God.
Be my God.