With today's reading I felt a call to pray. I pray, but again today I feel the urge to really devote some time to talking to Jesus..so I plan to journal once I post this.
I was struck with Peter's emotional reaction to the discovery that he had indeed denied Jesus 3 times before the rooster crowed. Because I think I screw up a lot but I don't know what's missing but I don't know if I react so strongly! Maybe it's because I haven't done anything as bad as Peter, but that certainly can't be it. Maybe it's just that I can't think of an example right now. Maybe it's that I'm not humble enough, maybe I should be more remorseful...
But really I think Peter's reaction comes from a relationship with Jesus like Moses describes.."The LORD would speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend."
Peter spoke often with Jesus as one speaks to a friend. And to betray, deny, hurt a friend is something that hits hard when you realize what you've done.
Talking to Jesus as a friend isn't SO THAT you will feel bad when you do something wrong...though I think it helps give that necessary perspective...
Talking to Jesus as a friend is SO THAT you can talk to Jesus as a friend! If being friends with the God of the universe is freely available to you: take it!
And that is why I want to spend some time to pray tonight. I want to take what is freely available to me: my friend Jesus.